Long time no post, I've been a little exhausted since I've been busy with the holidays, as well as trying to
get my life together and make steps to move forward to a new phase. I've been out of it for so long due to my
mental illnesses, that picking it all up is kind of a hard thing to do.
In terms of work, my psychiatrist set me up with a job coach, who's helped me refresh my resume, taught me how
to write cover letters, and is currently helping me apply for as many jobs that fit me as we can. I've got some
work to do still, but I feel like I've actually got a shot at being invited to a job interview now.
And school! YES! I've applied, and recently been accepted to, a new college! I'm going back into software development/engineering, which I'm super excited about. I've loved coding the moment I started doing it, so I'm really excited to flex my coding muscles again and learn more stuff soon. I'm a bit nervous, since last time I went to college everything kinda went to shit when I relapsed into my eating disorder, but this time I've got a therapist who's helping me work through it and can help me keep an eye out for red flags and signs of it. I don't want to let myself get knocked down again, so I'm going to give it the absolute best I can.
It's also now 2026, and I actually have a few new years resolutions. Usually I think they're stupid, I still
kind of do, but for me it's not so much about a big change but more about consistent small changes and steps
forward, away from my old life.
This year I'm dedicated to not touching a single drop of alcohol, as well as just going to college, not even
necessarily doing super well, but just going and doing well enough to make it through. I also really want to do
more art this year, because I feel I've not just stagnated, but kind of gone backwards in my art skills. I
didn't draw much in '25, again, due to my mental health issues, but I hope this year I can do a bit more in
terms of art.
I also hope to find a job, because I want to be able to see my boyfriend more than once a year if at all
possible. He lives super far away, as in, across the ocean, so a visit is kind of a big deal that costs no small
amount of money. I've run out of savings at this point, and I just really want a job, man.
That's about all I got going on! Hopefulle next time I can make a blog post about how annoying work is or how a school assignment is giving me a headache. Who knows what the future of the big '26 holds!